Today was an extremely difficult day.
I have been getting up early to go visit my Mom in the hospital everyday. There is so much to do that I only get over there once a day lately. The girls have prom this Saturday so it has been rushing around trying to find shoes, cover ups for their dresses etc...
I have rubbed my eyes to the extent of rubbing out clumps of eye lashes. :( Never done that before. I am going to have to wear false eye lashes this Saturday so I don't look ridiculous with missing eye lashes.
Also my Dad has been making me stress (not on purpose on his part) but he is in such a negative mood. He does not want to really do anything to take back his life. It is like he waits till I come over there and do it for him. (like paying his bills) I can not keep up with everything. He does not even want to call insurance companies to straighten out anything. I had to put my foot down and tell him he had to do it.
Ken and I are both chaperone's at the home school prom and I went to find something to wear and had no luck only came away feeling discouraged. I decided finding a dress was not going to happen. It would be a waste of money that we do not have. I would never wear it again so not going to happen. After shopping I had to swing by Walmart by the mall and pick up a purse because my purse broke while I was dress shopping. When I came out I could not find my truck and thought it has been stolen because my remote would not sound. As it turns out I had parked completely on the other side of the parking lot. My mind does not work so well when it is sleep deprived. Maybe it does not work so well even when it isn't. lol!
Anyway to end my day I felt like I had to fall on my knees in prayer to come back to life again. Now I feel much better. Thank you Lord for not forsaking me. You were there all a long just waiting for me to come to you.
Monday, April 19, 2010
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
The latest...
Lots happening here...
Sunday when I was at the hospital visiting with my Mom I noticed she has bruising up and down her arms and even on her chest. Then a lab tech came in to take two cultures because the doctor thinks she may have an infection. (Well ya... its on her back.) Anyway I have been telling them they need to put a central line in so they are not sticking her everyday for blood. I told them this a week ago. Now they say it is not their policy to do central lines. What conflicting information. Anyway I had them call the doctor and I told him no more sticks. They could put in a central line. He says ok. Then Monday when I went in they came and told me they could not do anymore for my Mom since I would not allow them to take blood so they could send her home with the wound vac. I said ok that is where I have wanted her from the beginning. She is only here for the wound.
Today they called me and said Medicare would not pay for the wound vac at home. She was not a candidate because her wound was not progressing. I said... So is this Obama Care where you life value is determined by someone else? She said they would send her home with a bandage on her wound that had to be changed daily. Or they could continue to keep her until the 19th and keep trying. But I would have to allow them to take blood with the stipulation that only the best of the best is the one trying to get a vein.
What other choice are you giving me. I can not just bring her home without giving her the best opportunity for the wound. I told her what I said to her the day before that the one who would heal this wound would be God not a doctor or a wound nurse.
Secondly there has been rumor of Ken's job moving to Dallas for a long time now so this has been stressing me out with all the is going on with my parents. Then Monday American Airlines made it official and announced it. One year from now they will move the desk to Dallas. I had to break the news to my Dad so he would not hear it from someone else. My Dad did not say anything or react but I know my Dad and I could tell he was depressed. It broke my heart to tell him.
I prayed about this and I know my home (which we love and built it the way we wanted it) is just a house and material so it can be replaced. But God knows that I can not live with myself if I feel I am leaving my parents in distress. So I am trusting him for healing in my Mom and Dad and to work all this out. God says if we ask ANYTHING in the name of Jesus and we believe we would have it. God's word does not lie. And I know God is never late he is always on time. So waiting for healing to manifest. I am also rebuking satan's hold on my parents. In the name of Jesus he has to flee. He has no authority over God's children!
Sunday when I was at the hospital visiting with my Mom I noticed she has bruising up and down her arms and even on her chest. Then a lab tech came in to take two cultures because the doctor thinks she may have an infection. (Well ya... its on her back.) Anyway I have been telling them they need to put a central line in so they are not sticking her everyday for blood. I told them this a week ago. Now they say it is not their policy to do central lines. What conflicting information. Anyway I had them call the doctor and I told him no more sticks. They could put in a central line. He says ok. Then Monday when I went in they came and told me they could not do anymore for my Mom since I would not allow them to take blood so they could send her home with the wound vac. I said ok that is where I have wanted her from the beginning. She is only here for the wound.
Today they called me and said Medicare would not pay for the wound vac at home. She was not a candidate because her wound was not progressing. I said... So is this Obama Care where you life value is determined by someone else? She said they would send her home with a bandage on her wound that had to be changed daily. Or they could continue to keep her until the 19th and keep trying. But I would have to allow them to take blood with the stipulation that only the best of the best is the one trying to get a vein.
What other choice are you giving me. I can not just bring her home without giving her the best opportunity for the wound. I told her what I said to her the day before that the one who would heal this wound would be God not a doctor or a wound nurse.
Secondly there has been rumor of Ken's job moving to Dallas for a long time now so this has been stressing me out with all the is going on with my parents. Then Monday American Airlines made it official and announced it. One year from now they will move the desk to Dallas. I had to break the news to my Dad so he would not hear it from someone else. My Dad did not say anything or react but I know my Dad and I could tell he was depressed. It broke my heart to tell him.
I prayed about this and I know my home (which we love and built it the way we wanted it) is just a house and material so it can be replaced. But God knows that I can not live with myself if I feel I am leaving my parents in distress. So I am trusting him for healing in my Mom and Dad and to work all this out. God says if we ask ANYTHING in the name of Jesus and we believe we would have it. God's word does not lie. And I know God is never late he is always on time. So waiting for healing to manifest. I am also rebuking satan's hold on my parents. In the name of Jesus he has to flee. He has no authority over God's children!
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