I know this blog does not get read so this is my therapy for today by trying to focus by putting my thoughts down in this post. It may not make sense but it is an attempt to try and get my thoughts out.
It is difficult to focus on anything. Just getting out of bed and starting the day seems daunting some days. Sometimes I am not sure where the time goes when all I had to do was get in the shower and get dressed.
Sometimes I cry at the drop of the hat. I can not complete a train of thought. Ken was frustrated at me at first because I would start to tell him something and never finish it. In my mind I had finished it but the words simply never came out. I also do things without having any memory of it. Like when they found something from the fridge in the cupboard etc...Ken told me he thought I was having post traumatic stress due to the fact of how I witnessed my Mother's death.
I just feel confused and can not focus on what needs to be done.
Right now I am trying to focus on one thing at a time. Our youngest graduates from high school this weekend and I can not focus on anything but that for right now. I am overwhelmed when I try to do more than one thing at a time.
I know God will help me get through this but for now it is one day, one task at a time.
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